Late night blogging.

Well, these couple of days have been nice. I go home before 10 and I have loads of fun! But when I come home and come back to reality, things don't seem so good afterall. I sort of blame this one person for making me feel this way.. But who's kidding, it's my fault that I feel like this. I keep letting myself go. Let's have a recap of today. I went to school, did all my work and stayed focus. I really didn't want to stay after school for drama rehearsals but I knew it was the better thing to do so I stayed after all. Then around 4 I got picked up by blaze buddy and friends. We cruized and went to the mall. Me and blaze buddy were cracking up like crazy! I don't even remember what we talked about, but that shit was funny:) Then we met up with babyboy Bruce and we went to Sam's neighborhood to kick it. We just hung out right in front of his house, but it was sort of fun. I felt like we were little kids playing on the playground and hitting each other! freaking Linda bit Aaron on the neck twice and left all these vampire marks, eeek D: I got dropped off and tried texting ______, but he wasn't in that texting mood I guess. It sometimes gets me irritated how he's always like that. He's like another version of my bestfriend.. But he keeps it mature and doesn't blow up on me for not texting back or some shit. I wanna say today was a good day, but you kind of killed it for me. It doesn't even seem like you want me in your life sometimes. Why would you ask that dumb question if you didn't even care? I'm sorry for being such a little bitch about it but come on now, we both know something's up. I feel like if I get sucked into this anymore I'm not gonna be able to get out. This is scary.. I don't know what I'm doing right now. I'm so confused, don't know what to do at this point. All I can say is "fuck it or what?" Whhhhhhhy is life fucking with me like this :(