Tired of the games, think I'm ready for change.

sometimes I can be really fucked up in the head, and mess around with people's feelings just cause I feel like it. I don't know why I do that. maybe I just enjoy the thrill and seeing someone suffer. I'm such a bad person huh.. but I have common sense, I know when it's too much. and I can be honest, and not cover up lies with more lies. you know I'm just scared though. I'm scared of my own shadow and I'm scared to be alone. that's all. but if I keep this up I'll end up with on one by my side, and eventually explode. I don't want to feel like that anymore.